3.09.2010

3/9/10 O baby baby it's a wild world...it's hard to get by just upon a smile....


Things have been fairly quiet here at Momi boutique...except for the sound of my sewing machine of course. I believe most of the world knows I've been gearing up to go out of town in 2 days. We are oh So very excited to go see our family in North Carolina and beach modeling can absolutely not be beat..it's complete cooperation from every angle & pure natural beauty....


I believe I have cut & sewed over 50 different pieces over the past 5 days.  Alot of time spent at the sewing machine equals ALOT of caffeine, sleepless nights, & checking messages & tweets on my phone. 
5 days, one case of Coke & a box of girl scout cookies later I believed I had about enough of the sewing room. I went in to grab my phone off my desk today, updated my twitter and there it was....the tweet that I had been dreading for the past 10 months. 

My heart got heavy & sank right down to my feet..the same way it had when I first heard the word "neuroblastoma" come from Shanna. I actually knew exactly what neuroblastoma was when she told me. 

Coincidentaly, about a month or so before Layla was diagnosed, I was aimlessly browsing the web one night & ended up stumbling on a blog of an etsy shop owner who was raising money to fund a memorial for her little girl who became an angel much too soon. There was to be a playground built in her honor and it was called Cora's playground project. http://themcclenahans.blogspot.com/2009/02/coras-story.html  I found this blog just about a month or so after she passed & spent until 4 am reading & weeping..or should I say sobbing.  I kept thinking..oh please, oh please Mr. Momi do not wake up, you will surely think I have completely lost my marbles sitting up at 4 am balling my eyes out at the computer.  After that I do believe I slowly became a hypochondriac with my children, always feeling for bumpy bellies or any slight sign of something out of the ordinary. 
I never EVER thought it would come to this.  I always thought that there was just NO WAY layla was going to go.  I really was hoping for a miracle, a simple twist of fate for Layla Grace.  Please keep her family in your thoughts during this trying time. Her spirit will forever live on & her captivating smile will never be forgotten.   I hope you find something beautiful beyond the gates of heaven....rest beautifully....angel face...sweet Layla Grace. 11/26/2007 - 3/9/2010