If you don't have anything nice to say...don't say anything at all.. Isn't that how the story goes?
Truth be told...it has been a long, LONG time since I actually took a moment to blog. I know it has come as a disappointment to family & friends who frequent my blog during their boredom at work & keep looking & looking for a witty little story. haha Forgive me friends for I have failed you.
For the past month I felt as if my life was a whirlwind, to say the least, & I don't think I have been the most positive petunia in the patch so I figured..better to leave it all unsaid. Here's a shortened version for your entertainment purposes now that my train is back on track & I can look back & laugh!
When we arrived home from our beach vacation, over a month ago,I decided it was time to finally start planning me & Mr. Momi's wedding. Yes...wedding. We've been legally married for 1.5 years but still no white dress, no vows, no photographs, no rings.....just a few pretty little girls, a house, & a whole lot of love. I guess that is all one really needs but, I always feel in my heart that the biggest regret that I will have in life & the thing that will eat away at me when I'm 75 & sitting in my rocker is that I never had a wedding. Not that I was ever one to fantasize about a fancy white dress & all that hoopla..quite frankly, when I was a little girl...(close your ears)...I hated dresses. I would throw an all out kicking & screaming fit if I was made to wear a dress. Anyhow, September 5th is our actual wedding date on paper so, to make it all legit & cut down on confusion, I really wanted to have our wedding ceremony on September 5th. I don't think it occured to me until we started receiving "Save the Date" magnets in the mail for all of the upcoming weddings on labor day weekend, that THIS was the year to have a wedding, this was the ONLY year to have a wedding because if I didn't have it now, I was going to be waiting another 6 years until September 5th wrapped back around & fell on a weekend. So I started thinking...beach..Vegas...beach..Vegas?? My brain was consumed with thoughts of a wedding. I weighed all the options, contacted the "Important" people that would be in the wedding & I felt like I was running in circles, getting nowhere fast. I thought to myself 100 times, this is too much, this is too much, I really don't have time for this. Did you know that elopement is the #1 type of wedding ceremony? Why am I absolutely NOT surprised!? Wedding planning is definately NOT a job for a lady with a 1 & a 3 year old, a 90 hour a week business, and a husband that is barely home. I slowly gave up. I didn't pass the duty to someone else, I just plain quit! By the end of it I was no longer thinking..beach..vegas..beach..vegas...I was thinking..who is moving out? you or me? I definately slowly drove myself & Mr. Momi up a wall & thank goodness I quit before I completely fell off the edge. I firmly believe that everyone has a unique series of events that happens in their life for a reason. So in my life oopsie daisy #1 & #2 came along before a wedding ceremony.....I always say to Mr. Momi that things didn't happen in the "right way, the right order", maybe I'm just looking for some reassurance that we are still "normal" & his reply is always..."the right way according to who?". Ah yes, maybe one day I will get that beach wedding.
In the midst of it all my body was not functioning well with these outlandish wedding thoughts & it slowly started to let me know. I became nauseous around 1pm every single day for a month. Although I knew I was not pregnant, the thought crossed my mind that I might be the next contestant on the "I didn't know I was pregnant" show & my favorite mistake #3 was going to just suddenly make her way into the world without my prior knowledge. I traded my coffee pot for green tea & substituted my cans of coke for a bottle of h2o. The nausea stopped & suddenly I was having these upper abdominal contractions/pain that took me down to my knees. I would lay in my sewing room and cry & cry. Mr. Momi would say to me...just tell your customers your sick, people do understand those kind of things. I shot down my voice of reason & kept at it. Actually, I did close my shop one Friday morning because it occured to me...what if I am a goner? What if my body is just breaking down & I'm done? I surely thought I was going to lose an organ or be given the diagnosis of stomach cancer. I was in & out of doctors & had every test up & down the chart performed. At the end of my rope I was given the diagnosis of crazy. Personally, I will take crazy over cancer ANY day of the week! (for the record, my doctor did not actually say I was crazy, he said they found nothing of concern & since the pain subsided he was not going to order anymore tests) Hallelujiah!!! Almost the day after I had closure in that department I came down with a nasty 104.1 fever/virus to prolong my no blogging, no working schedule...and then...to top it all off! the straw that broke the camels back was dropped in regards to the girls daycare situation so, I took then completely back into my care 24/7 ....fantastic! I get a second shot at motherhood! On the flip side, I am grateful it all came down to this. They expressed many times that they are happy to be home with mommy & I'm happy to feel that my days are a little more balanced. Needless to say, the coffee pot is back on the counter & the fridge is filled with cans of coke to get me through the days of my life. With the girls home with me I am now given no choice but to stop & smell the roses...I guess that is why even though I managed to neglect & kill 3 hanging baskets over the course of a month last spring....I found ambition in me this spring to plant what seemed like hundreds of flower seeds...I guess only time will tell if my garden will grow!
All we can hope for are little April Showers to bring us someMay flowers!
Now through the end of April when you buy the complete Little April Showers set from MOMI boutique, enjoy 35% off any floral dress of your choice! You will also be rewarded a $15 Momi boutique GC for use on a future purchase!
(*while supplies last, floral dress must be a MOMI boutique design & can not be a "special requested" item, can not be combined with any other Momi "code" discount, refund will be sent through paypal after transaction is complete)